here i go again...

Eye of Belfast, July 2008, Northern Ireland

expectations
misplaced expectations
send me in a tailspin
round and round.

steady now
i want to get off.

i am choosing to let go
of these misplaced expectations.
it is only hurting me, not the one
whom these misplaced expectations
are directed towards.

grief.
that is what i feel
and
embarrassment
for thinking
we were kindred spirits
all these years.

change.
change and
expect nothing in return.
send my bitterness, hurt and grief
in a tailspin.
in a tailspin to the abyss.
leave it there.
leave it there forever.

hope.
i hope i can look at
this friendship
in a new light.
i hope we can take a ride together
someday
round and round
and see the world and
our friendship
in a new light.

here i go again...